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The Inner Life of Asanas is comprised of different yoga poses described by a personal story of the author (or mythological tale she’s heard regarding the pose), physical ways to practice the pose, and reflections on the pose. I found the little stories fun and sometimes beautiful. The physical how-tos on how to practice the asanas were nice but nothing new since I have spent so much time in the teacher training learning how to do asana. What I ended up enjoying about the book were the reflection sections on each pose. It’s there that I realized what my personal experiment really was.

After practicing the pose I would write down my answers to the reflection questions. An example of such a question about bakasana (crane pose) was, “ Visualize a crane and try to embody its qualities. Ask: What are you afraid of? When you work with Crane pose, can you peer beneath the surface to see the root of the fear?” The book describes bakasana as, “the yoga of falling on your face” which I thought was fitting since I can barely do bakasana before I panic at the thought of crashing head first into the floor. When I did the reflection writing I was sort of surprised that I wrote, “I’m afraid of failing.” I wrote failing, not falling. Freudian slip initiated by a yoga pose. It’s true though; I’m terrified of failing in my life.

What my personal experiment became was, as the book suggests, was finding the inner life of asanas. Even though I knew that asanas were more than just physical poses, the book helped me to really see the spiritual and psychological core behind the actions. It also helped me to become sensitive to emotional and spiritual reactions I had to each asana and how my feelings manifested themselves in my body. After a lot of meditating on why I was afraid of failing, and accepting that I if I fell over in crane pose then I fell over, I was able to do a very beautiful and sustained crane pose.

Before graduating, Axis Yoga Teacher Training students submit a paper describing the experience of completing a personal experiment. In this experiment students have an opportunity to put any of the yogic principles they have been studying to the test. This student found a big lesson by making a small change.

My personal experiment consisted of exercises and explorations crossing the midline. There is a balancing pose in asana practice from the table position that extends the opposing arm and leg outward then draws the extended elbow and knee together under the chest. It sounds very simple at face value, but upon attempted practice I found it very difficult from a coordination standpoint. I was told years ago that it was because I was crossing the midline and engaging the non-dominant side of my body and brain that caused the difficulty. So the experiment was to do other actions with the non-dominant side (left hand) and see how that affected my practice, both in asana and in other experiences like, playing guitar where use of both hands are required and typing as well.

I began to do things in my daily routine left-handed. I reprogrammed my computer mouse to the left hand. I ate meals using the left hand. I washed and shaved using the left hand. And during asana practice where it called for interlacing the fingers or sitting cross-legged I did the action in the non-dominant orientation first.

Eating left handed is something I’ve tried before just for fun and if you have not done this yourself, the first thing I recommend is to wear a bib or something you are not worried about spilling on. Oatmeal is a good breakfast meal to do this with because it is less likely to cause a mess than cereal with milk or eggs for example. There is also the risk of sticking a fork in your lip accidentally when trying this. There has been no blood drawn in this exercise, but one thing I did notice is that it made me much more mindful during the meal. There is always a tendency to mindlessly inhale your food as fast as you can, while the television or computer is on. Well you just cannot do that when you are activating the non-dominant hand. You have to concentrate on getting that utensil to your mouth as the muscles are moving and the neurons are firing in a different way in your brain.

The computer mouse was another interesting experience. As I started this, there was the feeling of being the Tin Man from Wizard Of Oz just because my brain, so it seemed, could not tell my left hand where to go on the mouse pad. My left elbow started to flair out in some weird contorted way and I almost had to reach my right hand over to guide it. There was some pressure too because I didn’t want to accidentally click on some spam advertisement for home mortgage refinancing while my brain was trying to figure out how to get my left hand to do what it was asking. After a couple of days, something kicked in and I’ve been able to function pretty well on the computer mouse. Regarding my typing ability, I have not seen any tangible difference in my typing speed and/or accuracy.

Washing has not been eventful because I’ve always been pretty ambidextrous in that department. Shaving was another matter. As opposed to eating with the left hand, I’ve never tried shaving with the left hand. At first I was having a similar experience as I had with the computer mouse, where the arm did not quite comprehend what I was telling it to do. It took some effort and creative visualization to actually bring the razor to my cheek. Eventually I was able to train my left hand to get going and was able to shave without missing spots. As with eating it was not something that I could do while my mind wandered somewhere else, I had to focus on the task at hand and it made me more mindful of how the blade felt on my skin, the thickness of the shaving gel on my face and what parts of my skin were sensitive and irritated from the strokes of the razor. Then I had a little mishap under my nose. I had been shaving left handed for a week without incident. I have chronic dry skin and the occasional scratches here and there are common when I shave. But this one was a doosy because I totally misinterpreted the pressure and angle I was putting on the handle and the blade dug into the skin. It took 20 minutes to stop the bleeding and now I have two lines of scratches in exact proportions to the two blades of the razor as a temporary reminder to pay attention and be in the moment.

I have made significant improvement in asana practice both in poses that require interlacing my fingers and in the alternating arm and leg extension exercises that require the coordination to bring the opposing elbow to the knee. I had noticed a significant difference in my grip and flexibility previously on the non-dominant grip and now the grips are basically the same. On the extension exercises, both my coordination and my overall balance have improved dramatically.

The last major facet of the experiment was playing the guitar. I consider myself a very amateur strummer. A few years ago I bought a “Teach Yourself Guitar” book and companion CD Rom and proceeded to learn some basic chords. I found various web sites where I could get the chords for favorite songs. It was much more motivating to me to do that than to work on songs like “Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star” from the book. However, the emphasis on the left hand to play chords was mentally exhausting. I also have had issues with transitioning from one chord to the next. With a lot of practice, I could play well enough to be endearing to my wife if I learned a new song for her birthday or our anniversary. My play would certainly not be good enough to play for anyone else. So I was very interested in what affect if any the crossing the midline exercise would have. I am happy to say that I have noticed an improvement in transitions from chord to chord, the ability to learn new chord combinations, and also to experiment with alternates that sound better than the ones listed. I noticed this affect trying new music with many chords I had never attempted to play before plus revisiting old songs that I had not looked at for a long time.

The common theme in all of my experiences during this experiment was focus. I had to focus my mind on the task and be in the moment. It reminds me of a favorite quote from Charles Dickens; “ He did each single thing, as if he did nothing else.”  In the future, I’ll call again upon this simple exercise to remind me to be present in the moment whether it is while eating, during asana practice, hiking in the mountains, everywhere.

Each student at Axis Yoga Teacher Training completes a personal experiment on the subject of their choosing. This student examined the effects of Sadhana, daily spiritual practice. And what happens when you then take it away. The results were enlightening and point to a life-long practice ahead.

For my personal experiment, I chose to study the effects and benefits of Sadhana.  I chose Heart of Sadhana, by M.P. Pandit, as my book to coincide with the experiment.

Since this course began, some three months ago, I have adopted a daily sadhana practice, which includes pranayama, meditation and mantra.  Over these months, I have noticed a dramatic shift in both my attitude and approach to daily life, as well as in difficult situations.

In my daily life, I have noticed that I don’t get as emotionally entangled in certain situations.  I have been able to observe and remain engaged, without allowing so much of my prana, or vital energy, to be drained.  I have also noticed that I have been able to handle stress in a much healthier and productive manner.

A few days prior to the beginning of this course, my step-father passed away.  It was not completely unexpected, as his health had been failing in the past few years.  I had a very difficult and painful history with him, and held a lot of resentment and anger towards him.  My mother, even knowing this, asked me to come while he was dying.  I thought this was to offer support for her, which I felt blessed and honored to do.  However, something else profoundly beautiful and moving occurred.  Despite the fact that he had also been unkind and abusive toward my mother for years, I observed the most pure and honest compassion I have ever seen, extended from her to him.  Also, in those final hours, I was able to release all of my anger, and forgive him.  It was a deep and profound spiritual experience for me, which I will treasure always.

Typically, after a situation like this, I would tend to sink deep into the emotionality of it.  I would internalize all the intense emotions and seek external comfort and peace.  In this case, I believe largely because of the daily sadhana, I was able to begin to process the experience in a very honest and conscious way. This was a very pivotal awakening for me.

As part of this experiment, I decided to abandon my sadhana practice for a week, just to see if I noticed a difference.  This sort of backfired, as one week very easily became two, and then, even crept into three.  I was shocked at how easy it was to come up with excuses not to practice.  Mainly it was, “I need more sleep”, or “I’m too busy”.  Well, I had been just as busy and sleep-deprived in those previous months, but I still awoke around 4:30 or 5am to fit in my sadhana.  I made time for it.

Also worth mentioning, was the noticeable shift in my attitude and stress level.  I so easily reverted back into old samskaras, or patterns, allowing myself to be drawn into situations and emotions, then feeling drained.

Another thing that I observed was my swearing.  Being a mom has pretty much taught me to forego this habit…at least out loud.  During this experiment, I became very conscious of just how much I do swear, even if it is mostly inside my own head.  Suddenly, I was acutely aware of every time I silently swore at a rude driver, an inconsiderate co-worker, or sometimes just people in general, or a situation.  So, here, I realized that I had not been doing this in the past couple of months.  I noticed that it almost hurt a little each time I swore, on a subtle spiritual level.  Also, I felt like I was just hurling that angry energy out into the Universe, no matter how silent it was.

I am currently trying to rebuild my daily sadhana practice.  I am finding it difficult to focus, but know that with consistency and intention…it will come.  To quote M.P. Pandit, “…surrender is not a one day affair.  Surrender is the end-product of a long process of effort.  And personal effort lies precisely in working out the determination, the will to surrender.”