My first realization is that Sadhana must be practiced regularly. Without the practice, it is
simply a lovely theory. If all I do is sit in a room and read and discuss what I can be and how I can grow, I
will never move from my current state. I actually have to DO something if I want to change.
My next realization is that without presence, I sleep through life and the waves made by my
unaware actions carry me along. Being present allows me to actively choose what to do or not do.
When I am conscious, I select, for each moment, what actions I take. I get to be aware of and
understand some of the possible consequence of these actions.
Without that consciousness, I’m not even aware that there is a choice to be made, let alone
understand the consequences of my actions; I simply react to life. The alarm goes off, so I get out of
bed. I have worked at this particular job for four years, so I go to work. I have bills to pay, so I do what I
have to do to earn a living. The cats are hungry, so I feed them. The laundry is dirty, so I wash it. The
interesting thing is that, when I’m present, the cats are still hungry and I still feed them, but I chose to
feed them and I choose when to feed them. I’m not simply rambling down the hall, with them wrapping
themselves around my legs, to get the food to them as quickly as possible, so that the yowls for food
stop. The point is that the choice exists.