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I chose Tapas as my Niyama.  I have seen Tapas defined as, “passion, or zeal for yoga”.    I practiced sadhana every day for 15-45 minutes – first, pranayama, then meditation.  I also practiced asana, when I had the time.  I diligently got up between 4:30 and 5:00am on work days, around 6:00am on non-work days.  I practiced before sunrise, while my space was still relatively silent.

I noticed immediately that I was able to disengage, personally and emotionally, from these situations.  It was as though I was a passive observer in a protective “bubble”, not allowing the emotionality of the situation to affect me.  It may seem as though I was becoming dispassionate, but that was not the case.  I was able to observe the situation without allowing it to enter into my being.  It was still just as disturbing, but I did not internalize it and carry it with me.  I was able to disengage both passively and actively, especially when a co-worker would deliberately try to engage me in a conversation about a patient that was not pertinent to my direct involvement in that patient’s care.  Frequently someone would even start talking to me about a patient whom I did not even know.  In these situations, instead of engaging in the conversation, or even listening, I would consciously and graciously excuse myself and walk away.  This process seemed to happen organically.  I did not have a plan or intention for how it was going to unfold.  It was amazing!  It was as though I had discovered some beautiful secret that had lay dormant in me for years!

I have noticed a remarkable shift in both my attitude and energy at work.  Where I used to leave work virtually every day emotionally drained, I now feel like I have my emotions and my energy intact when I walk out the door.  Where I’ve thought that it was my patients who were sapping my prana, it turns out it is my co-workers.  I realize that, although I cannot change how other people think, act or speak, I can change how I allow it to affect me.

A few days after I made a commitment to implement satya, truth, into my daily life, I found that I’d slowed down my speech and made a greater effort to actively listen to my interlocutor. I thought that maybe I’d continue in this vein, but over the next two weeks, satya seemed to sneak up on me in forms that I had not anticipated. I began to refine my understanding of the Yama, and to explore more deeply various relationships through the lens of satya. I noticed a consistent struggle with the concept of satya in two relationships in particular: my relationship with my work environment and my relationship as a bicyclist with motorists on the road. Because satya has taken on personal meaning for me, I’ll first describe how I have interpreted it in my daily life, and then I’ll offer two examples that demonstrate how satya has transformed how I work in my job and how I ride my bike.

Satya is the second Yama. According to T.K.V. Desikachar, “yama” can mean more than simply an ethical precept. It can mean “a ‘discipline’ or ‘restraints,’” and Desikachar further suggests, an “‘attitude’ or ‘behavior’” (98). In particular, the Yamas refer to an attitude we adopt toward others: in this way, Satya confronts language, communication, and the ego in the tricky process of interacting with the world.

My colleagues and I had discussed in our initial meeting what satya means and our own understandings of how it might apply to us: why did we choose this Yama? My struggle with truth manifests itself overtly: often, it is obvious that I am not telling the truth. I hyperbolize, overstate, stretch, bend, and spin what would otherwise be true. We agreed to ponder the question: What is my motivation for non-truth? When and where does it happen? I hypothesized that I exaggerate for social reasons – for humor or shock value for example – in order to augment others’ perceptions of me. Through this experiment, I realized that also commit non-truth by omitting the truth.

In my process of examining satya, I began to consider the space that non-truth occupies. I find it useful to use the words “fabrication” and “omission” to describe that space. A fabrication is the creation of something that was not already there: for one who lies about the world her or she lives in, fabrication creates distance between the self and the world – between the subject and the object – the same subject-object distance that Derik described during his discussion of ahimsa. In his discussion of satya, B. K. S. Iyengar offers the following analogy, “as fire burns impurities and refines gold, so the fire of truth cleanses the yogi and burns up the dross in him” (33). Non-truth is rubbish. It is extra. I will examine my relationship as a bicyclist with motorists on the road from this perspective of fabrication.

Satya, as a restraint, means to control and limit non-truth. As I discussed, this can mean to refrain from amplifying the truth. It also implicates truth that should be spoken, but it not: omission, the negative space that non-truth occupies. I will examine my relationship with my work environment from the perspective of omission.

Non-truth, lies, fabrications, and omission prevent the subject from being fully present in the world. Satya asks the practitioner to confront the world.

I knew that I struggled with exaggeration, but the process of this experiment has challenged something I hadn’t acknowledged: that I often hold back and omit the truth, and that in doing so I limit my capacity to truthfully confront the people I am surround by and myself as a result. Satya has been an opportunity for me to examine my attitude towards the world I live in: to examine my mental projections and compare my perception and emotional experience of an event with what is happening outside of me. I have become more conscious of the subtle role of honesty in my daily interactions. I have uncovered more work to be done.