Each Axis Yoga Teacher Training student writes a paper describing their personal experience with the yogic principles of Yamas (restraints) and Niyamas (observances). This student reflected on how the Yama, Brahmacharya (continence) and the Niyama, Santosa (contentment) are already present and working in his current lifestyle.
Yama/Brahmacharya: To consist of (not totally limited to): Life of celibacy, religious study & self restraint—continence, abstinence, self-containment & moderation.
Niyama/Santosa: Contentment has to be cultivated. A mind that is not content cannot concentrate. Contentment and tranquility are states of mind—these are present when the flame of the spirit does not waver in the wind of desire. Feeling of being content with what we have—“contentment counts for more than all sixteen heavens together.” (Sutra commentary).
Realization: I live my life with Brahmacharya and Santosa present. This experiment is very compelling on a number of different levels—self reflection being the cornerstone. This is akin to peeling back the layers of the onion for greater self examination.
Facts: These Yamas & Niyamas continue to occur and present themselves without any dramatic lifestyle modifications, changes or adjustments—the following observations and discussion points were not intentional lifestyle modifications, they are actually how I live my life on a daily basis. I had no knowledge of the concepts of Brahmacharya or Santosa prior to this Axis Yoga YTT course. With this newly acquired knowledge, it is evident that I have practiced the primary component of Brahmacharya (abstinence—Life of celibacy) since April 2008. This is a function of my personal situation, decisions and relationship with my life partner. I am comfortable with what is currently happening inside me. I continue to work with my life partner on our personal situation(s) and all components of the very complicated relationship equation (currently we are in relationship counseling through the Graduate School of Psychology at the University of Denver). Not to be overlooked, at the age 18 (as my memory best serves me) I made a conscious decision that I wanted no children—no desire to procreate. As a total aside, it is my humble opinion that age needs to be considered when evaluating and understanding Brahmacharaya –as we age (I am 55 and my life partner is 57) the sex drive diminishes and becomes less of a priority, generally speaking.
The religious study component presents some very interesting areas for self-reflection. I consider myself to be an Agnostic (one who holds the view that any ultimate reality-as God-is unknown and probably unknowable). I would probably be best served to have some real in-depth discussions concerning the agnostic and atheist (one who denies the existence of God) definitions. At any rate I have some very strong beliefs regarding the concept of God. Organized religion is a concept that I don’t believe in and do not support. I have no faith based system (belief and trust in and loyalty to God; belief in the traditional doctrines of a religion; firm belief in something for which there is no proof). I consider myself to have a belief system (a state or habit of mind in which trust or confidence is placed in some person or thing; conviction of the truth or some statement or the reality of some being or phenomenon, when based upon examination or evidence). Additionally, I consider myself to have a spiritual outlook (Spirit: akin to blow, breathe; an animating or vital principle held to give life to physical organisms; supernatural being or essence). With this said, areas for further discussion and evaluation are: religion, faith, belief & spirit. With respect to God, I look at the Sun as fulfilling this ‘category’. Without the Sun (God) there is nothing else on our planet, Earth. The Sun (God) makes everything possible—without the Sun (God) there is no Prana (lifeforce/breath). This relationship (faith, religion & spirit) and associated challenge(s) was recently discussed in the Denver Post-April 4, 2011, Fitness Section, shedding additional light on a very personal and emotionally charged topic. Question: Who/what keeps the Earth, Solar System, Universe functioning? With this said, we move to another area of the religious, faith, belief & spirit discussion—Evolution, Creation and Intelligent Design. I am a firm believer of evolution. Not to be over-looked and a topic for another paper is the big-bang theory—how was the universe and our solar system created? What additional forms of life exist “out there?”
The self restraint component of Brahmacharya continues to be a very interesting personal study: Primarily my diet and lifestyle (if I remember correctly, it has been said, ‘we are what we digest’). By choice, I have a very simple lifestyle and a clean diet. By simple definition I am a vegetarian (have been strict for the past four years & hypocritical-ate fish-since 2001–then a number of years ‘on and off’ since 1976). Other areas of self restraint/abstaining from as it relates to lifestyle, includes but not limited to: alcohol of any kind (Jan. 2000), gluten (Jan. 2009), sugar/high fructose corn syrup, soda, fast food, tobacco and most forms of strict western medicine. These are several of the very important components of my lifestyle/diet that I am of aware of on a daily basis. By my own admission I am very strict, rigid and focused with regards to my diet and ingestion of nutrition. I leave room for moderation and self-evaluation based upon each individual situation. Equally relevant, in my opinion, is the concept of moderation (vs. abstaining from)—I am continually striving for more moderation (balance) as it relates to my pursuit of a ‘quality’ life.
The Niyama discussion relates to the concept of Santosa (contentment). I am generally very content and satisfied with what I have (and/or don’t have). Recently this was brought to light in two separate situations both relative to my passion for bicycling. FACT: I was not accepted into the 2011 Leadville Trail 100 MTB race. This process involved a lottery. I have numerous ‘connections’ in the cycling community that I could have called upon to get me into the Leadville race, however, I decided not to lean on those connections. I have totally accepted this situation—I am content, able to concentrate and tranquil. FACT: Shortly after this event I had an opportunity to purchase a fully-loaded MTB—a dream bike, but way too much bike. The price was right, however, the timing was not due to personal financial circumstances. After a significant amount of self reflection I discovered I was content with my current MTB—an adequate MTB, that gets the job done and will continue to provide me with the ability to ride and race. I am content with my decision—I cultivated Santosa relative to this specific situation. As I grow older I am more content with my business (a pizza concept)—focused on what we have vs. continually looking for ‘what might be.’ With an appreciation of Santosa I challenged myself to start the re-invention process. Embarking on this YTT process along with my Aroma Touch therapy training I have fulfilled two components of the very challenging and dynamic re-invention process. This re-invention is a function of the overall economic environment, aging process and a general desire to introduce athletes and ‘agers’ to the wonderful benefits of yoga.
This was a very interesting exercise in self examination.
As part of Axis Yoga’s Denver-based teacher training program, students conduct personal experiments that bring yogic principles into their daily lives. Some students choose to explore the application of different yogic yamas such as non-violence and truthfulness, while others experiment with asana or pranayama in various aspects of their lives. This student chose to conduct an experiment with Ayurveda. She conducted her experiment over the course of two weeks to see how Ayurvedic modifications to her diet and lifestyle would affect her asthma.
When I initially started the Axis Yoga Teacher Training program I had very little knowledge of the world of yoga outside of the asana practice. Certainly I knew that there were other components that made up the practice of yoga, but I did not understand that all of these parts must be practiced in order to have a whole and well rounded experience. Of course some teachings resonated with me more so than others. No where did this hold more true than in the study of Ayurveda. My interest in Ayurveda was two fold. First I have always had a relatively unhealthy relationship with food. I think that this is partially related to my general lack of self control as well as the fact that I was brought up in a very Italian household where it is taught that food can ease or enhance any emotion. However, my second reason was the one that drove me to further explore the benefits of Ayurveda, my asthma.
Since childhood I have had asthma. Initially the doctors diagnosed it as exercise induced asthma. Very early on though I realized that this was a mis-diagnosis because it often times seemed that the more in shape I was the less my asthma bothered me. From the time I was diagnosed until now, I have never felt comfortable leaving the house without my medication in fear of having an attack. There have been times that I recall being a half an hour from home realizing that I do not have my medication and turning around to get it. Not only is this scary on many levels it also makes me feel a like I have a certain amount of dependence. When I learned that Ayurveda could very effectively lessen the symptoms of asthma I was hooked. I generally eat quite healthy, but I certainly have never consumed food, slept or lived a life that was specific to my dosha. I decided to embark on a two week experiment, and track my inhaler usage respectively. During the first week I would follow the pitta guidelines and live a dosha specific life. During the second week I would live a completely chaotic and uncontrolled life. For purposes of this experiment I am defining ‘asthmatic episodes,’ as any time I feel enough constriction in my breathing that I am forced to use my inhaler.
During the beginning of the experiment I was very motivated to see if living a more pitta soothing life would make a difference for my asthma. I was lucky that week one happened during the Ayurveda section of our class. I felt very supported my classmates who were also working hard, and Beth Sanchez who was very available to help with any questions that arose. Upon reviewing Dr. Lad’s and the Ayurvedic institutes guidelines for what would help soothe pitta dosha and asthma I realized that I was going to have a very measured week ahead of me. During the week I followed the sleep wake guidelines: waking up at 5:30AM and falling asleep by 10:00PM. When I woke in the morning I did a 30 minute mediation practice focusing my pranayama practice on nadi sodhana and sitali. Following my meditation practice I did a very short, (15 minute) grounding asana practice. I had to certain that I was finished with this practice by 7:00AM so that I could eat breakfast at the appropriate time. For breakfast each day I ate oatmeal with sweet apples. I noticed on the first day how much more alert and motivated I felt when I stepped into the workplace. Asthma aside I enjoyed how I felt. For the entire week I diligently followed the eating times: 7AM for breakfast, 12PM for lunch 6PM for dinner. I ate a rather bland diet (as suggested), and cut out what seemed to be every food that I loved. In addition, each morning and night when I showered I infused the air with Eucalyptus or Cedar essential oils. I could feel the menthol of the Eucalyptus seeping into my body and almost calming my airways. By the end of the week my bronchial tubes only felt constriction very rarely. During this week I used my inhaler on average twice (2 puffs) per day. This was a drastic reduction from my normal usage.
During the second week of the experiment I lived a completely unmeasured and chaotic lifestyle, and I paid for it. I started off by paying no attention to the time I went to sleep or when I woke up. I went to bed when I was tired, sometimes this was 9:30PM and other times it was midnight. Consequently this effected my wake time as well. When I went to sleep at 9:30PM I found myself naturally waking around 7:00AM and on the nights I went to sleep at 12AM I was naturally waking closer to 8:00AM. I did not practice meditation or asana, I just simply woke, showered and went to work. I felt so groggy and cloudy when I arrived at work and noticed that it took hours before I felt fully awake. I also paid no attention to what I ate or when I ate it. I was eating pizza, cookies, and other sweets; these are items that I generally don’t even eat during my ‘normal’ life. I must admit from the gluttonous taste side these items tasted delicious, but I could feel the terror they were wreaking on my body. Before the end of the week I noticed an obvious weight gain around my abdomen, my skin was breaking out and I felt a general sense of lethargy. Although all of theses implications were negative what I was focused most on was my inhaler usage. During this week I also stopped performing the aromatherapy while I showered. There was a HUGE increase in my inhaler usage from week one to week two. As referenced above in week one I was using my inhaler an average of twice (2 puffs) per day. During week two my average inhaler usage went up to 5 times (10 puffs) per day. Although is a huge increase in inhaler usage my general sense of well-being felt compromised as well.
Overall, I felt like this experiment was very telling in many ways. What we feed our body and how we incorporate both exercise of the mind and body into our daily routine is very important. Although it is often time a ‘hassle’ to structure a day with such precision it makes the day far more enjoyable. I do not think that I will be able to live a life that follows all of the teachings of Ayurveda, but I do think that I will take some of the teachings in order to live a more mindfully aware life.
As part of Denver’s Axis Yoga teacher training program, students conduct experiments that incorporate yogic priciples into their daily lives. Coming into the program with a clear and strong set of spiritual and philosophical beliefs, Sarah found herself losing sight of those as she became more and more immersed into the program. This loss of focus on her core values provoked skepticism in her acceptance of many yogi beliefs. The following is a description of her process of questioning and confronting the fear of faith.