Trancending Attachment to People
I was doing well with most of my attachments but I had not even thought about my attachment to people. I was and still am very attached to people. I am a jealous person and that tends to lead me to hate and anger. Looking back at all of my past relationships, I sheepishly realized it was the reason for most of the arguments and then, inevitably, the breakup. I felt childish and stupid for letting my emotions take complete control of my life. I was insecure and jealousy flared up its nasty head in every relationship I have ever had. I first began working on it a few years back when I stepped back from it and saw it for what it was. Insanity. My mind is making me insane! I felt the blood boil in my veins, I would start shaking uncontrollably, and my heart would pound so furiously that that was the only thing I could hear. BUMPBUMPBUMPBUMPBUMPBUMP wildly screamed in my head and I couldn’t think of anything else but anger and hatred. Once I finally stepped back and took a good, hard look at myself I felt silly. Clarity arose and my mind freed itself from the grasp of my negative emotions. I would love to say that I was completely cured, but I wasn’t and still am not. I still feel a rise in temperature on occasion but nothing like it was. It is still a work in progress but I am also working on trying to see people in a new light, that we are all the same being.