The Serenity of Surrender: Conclusion
Although I love parts of my job, and always have, I don’t mean to suggest that I now love going to work and that I enjoy the culture and the environment in which I work. Work became just work; sometimes pleasant, sometimes unpleasant. I was serene and calm for a while. Some difficult days at work have come along since. Even though my anger and resentment haven’t returned, I do find myself getting overly stressed and worried; made larger by my headache condition. I see these as more opportunities to practice, even if they aren’t as successful as my first attempt.
I’m not sure that I experienced Ishvarapranidhana or if I experienced something else entirely. One way or the other, I’ve been given two amazing experiences for which I am thoroughly grateful.