Clearing out the Clutter: Svadhyaya
Getting started with svadhyaya was much easier for me. I always have day dreams about going back to school and changing my career, which is a large reason I am involved in this yoga teacher training. I took this opportunity to finally gather some information about local massage therapy schools, and to search for jobs online. I was even able to visit schools and see their programs, and had a couple job interviews lined up.
Yoga training has made me hyper sensitive, and has brought to surface some character traits that I have pushed down for so long. It has been both a blessing and a curse in many aspects. At the culmination of this experiment I decided that it was time for me to quit my job, as it has become much like an abusive relationship. I could no longer justify putting off my purpose in life merely out of guilt for leaving behind my job, my co-workers, and the clients. The stress of earning money and meeting others’ expectations of me seems less important now than my own physical and mental well-being.